I am 45, so of course expectations were reasonably low, and I called it a Hail Mary, but still. I didn’t expect the time, continued out of pocket expense that seemed to never end, and the setbacks.
It is an unpredictable, uncertain process.
You must have a blend of belief in yourself/the outcomes while staying totally grounded and valuing your WHOLE, COMPLETE, FULFILLING and LOVING life with or without a baby as the result. Miscarriage at 41, 2 years trying, and 20 months of ivf was my teacher. But I would have never resonated with this without doing it.
I had surgery to remove a polyp, then 90 days on supplements. Then a wildly successful egg retrieval for my age with one euploid embryo of 3, which was the result of 13 eggs. From there, it was failure after failure. 3 failed ER’s trying to bank more. Then resolving to transfer the one. A Painful mock round just reacting terribly to the protocol/meds. Uterine testing. Oy was that painful. Then ovulating during my FET so cancelled.
I actually did my only FET today. 6AB at 45. We will see. They said he was the best of the day. I said to the embryologist “you say that to all the girls.”